the plans he is making

His plans have changed a little and I am settling into the idea that he is leaving......... He will be leaving more around December that right now he has some bills he has to pay off first and get something straightened out here before he leaves........ tie up some loose ends so to speak..... I am nervous for him. I don't want him to fail I want him to succeed but I guess that is just the momma in me coming out...... I will always love him no matter where he is even if it is so far away.......

Think Happy Thoughts

Well I am going to start looking at the brighter side.............. I will have place to go and visit on vacation.......... I will hopefully get a grandchild out of all of this......... My son is happy............ I am not loosing a son but gaining another daughter.........

I feel better this morning and I think I will have a better day...................

He'll be leaving in about a month..........

My how time flies.............one day they are totally dependant on you and love only you and then they're grown and fall in love with that person........whom I guess I never thought would come along for him..............and then they are gone.................I cry nearly every day thinking of little things..........little memories that only a mom could understand........... I truely wish the best for him but I will miss him.............................

Looking back.......

I can remember when he was born..........he had so much hair ............he weighed 6lbs 13 oz......... My little man................ and now he is all grown up and moving far far away...............I know he is doing what he must..........but I will miss him......... May be this sounds funny but I miss him already........
well I better go before I start crying again..................

Just little ones........

How many of us can remember when our kids or grandkids were babies? How they wondered around wanting and talking about every little thing. That first smile ...... that first word...... that first night they slept all night..........oh the memories.............


Well this blog is going to be a special one for me not about crafting or my hobbies or anything like that but about my oldest child. He will be 23 in December and he is leaving the US to marry a young lady from New Zealand. I am happy for them in a way but sad in another...... I know he tells me mom I will come and visit once a year but well you know ....... I just don't think that will happen............. He is going to be leaving sometime in October.......... So I am all emotionally about it.... I know I will get to go and visit him but it want be the same at the 2 hour drive it is now..... it will be a 2 day plane trip one way....................